This blog is an argument against myself – against my own ego – as an independent, thinking, self-aware construct. It is a visitor’s guide to my process of letting go of everything I know and taking concrete steps to end myself while remaining living. This is not about a theoretical spiritual progression, it is about a very serious attempt to save myself from myself.
This coming spring, I will be attending my own funeral and leaving everything I have and everything I am behind. I’d like to go to Los Angeles. I think I’m going to walk there – going to walk across the country from Washington, DC – and spend some time losing, and then reconstructing my sense of self.
Does this sound dramatic and a bit silly? I understand if it does. But this blog and process are, nonetheless, necessary and this is, for better or worse, how I write. Maybe in the future I’ll be different.